Posting is a luxury.   Especially now, at 2AM, 5.5 hours before a quiz.    However, it's always the case - no time for anything.  Quizzes and exams are every day, and weekends are inadequate to keep up with reading.  I think the most important skill one learns in med school is just saying FUCK IT.  Yes, i could read more tonight.  But Id rather post.  SO THERE.

I ran into the dean the other day, and he told me, "I hear you're doing well."  I replied, "Only in medical school can barely passing be considered 'doing well'."  Its true, first bimonthly period I passed.  Barely.  And it won't happen this one.  No matter how hard I study, passing grades are elusive, especially in Anatomy.  Parasitology is not hard, but its time consuming, and although id love to pass it, im scared to devote more time to it than the absolute minimum.  I am struggling on the brink of passing and failing, and its been a gut wrenching experience.  Truth be told, failing a subject is unlikely to make my career lackluster.  If I failed something, Id stay an extra year.  I could take a lighter courseload for that year, and concentrate on USMLE I studies.  A superior USMLE score would offset a failing grade on my record.  Hence, nothing would be lost.  At the same time, the thought of a (50/50) possibility of staying here an extra year is not a pretty one.  I feel like Ill be an old man when I finally become someone.  Oh well, fuck it.

Aside from school i've been busy trying to enter a fraternity at my school.  It involves humiliating tasks, exhausting exercise, and mindboggling medicine quiz questions.  The latter helps me focus on my studies, the former two have left me quite tired every friday night.  Final rites will involve 16 hours of nonstop exercise both physical and mental.  An informal survey of upper years revealed a passing rate of about 50%.  I hope i can make it.

I cant wait till semester break... med school is no joke, y'all.